See you crying

destroys me. But knowing that you are crying over

 someone like me,destroys me completely.

And when I realized

I was smiling and saying everything was fine,

despite a big bruise called sadness, unable to heal.

Since when

I started to like both of you?

You were

one of the first people who accepted me the way I am.One of the first people who saw me not only as a "shadow." One of the first people who did not see me as a monster. One of the first people who reached out to help me.

I do not like being alone,

because that's when I have visions, and my imagination makes me see things I do not want.

Close your eyes. 

You feel that? I'm on your side. I'm here, even if you do not see. I'll be here forever. You simply close your eyes and feel my presence, the beating of my heart, the warmth of my body.

And today,

I realized how useless and not important I am. I noticed that people important to me, nor care about me ... Why am I still here? Why do I keep here for others who do not care for me? Why did I write this knowing that no one will read?